✖Perm + Dyed ✖

Today went to Evergreen Hair Saloon Make Up my hair.
Its was totally use a long time.
Sperm Curl + Dyed.
11AM until 3PM.

Mummy them just throw me one people at there make up.
Badly,no people accompany me.
I'm quite bored at there.
But fortunately that girl help me make up my hair's is NICE.
It my cousin's employee.



This Dec Of 27 , 28 , 29
Is my Grandpa & Grandma doing [ Gong Tek ]

Christmas Is Going Coming Soon.
I'm miss you much. ><

✖伪装✖

雨陪我哭泣，看不清，我也不想看清
听雨的声音，一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴参入我的爱里
真希望，雨能下不停
让想念继续，让爱变透明

女人是泪水做成的
我哭；是因为我难过
我哭；是因为我想你

何必那么的在乎？
[ 要怪就怪我最亲的人 ]
好伤哦，泪不断一滴滴的从我脸颊滑落下
美好的早晨既是我泪流满面的早晨

最亲的人既是我妈妈
而我最爱的人既是在那天的情形中选择原地不动
我就快崩溃了
我比你，比任何人伤心几百倍
为何不想回去，我们也有我们的过错

妈妈三番五次的像我问起了你
要是她真的生气，也就不会像我问起了你
而你也不是不知道妈的为人是如何的

非得为了那天的事而选择放弃吗？
懂为何我一次一次的选择挽留吗？
也许是像你口中所说的 “ 不想懂 ”
无论你说的话有多伤，有多痛
我都依依的选择挽留，守候

也许大家都会认为我好笨对吧？
陈佳顺，谢谢你那天骂我
我没事，我很好
我还能笑啊 ，你看 >>>> ：）

3.1.2005 是我踏入中学生涯的第一天
14.12.2009 是我离开中学生涯的最后一天
朋友们，谢谢你们的陪伴
祝福大家在未来的路取下成功的一面

圣诞节将近了
难道我们就不能一起渡过吗？

✖傀儡✖

窗外的街灯还在努力掩饰着早晨
我的叹息成真了整夜的苦闷
我的等待换不到你的拥抱

还记得你牵起我手的那一刻
如今却那么残忍的对待

就如你所说的那么简单吗?

我永远都是人家的傀儡
用过了就丢

我是一位
就连1分钱也不值的女生

这种感受就如
生不如死

不要问我
我不会说
没人能体会

✖犯贱✖

大马教育文凭考试即将告一段落了
还有一天
我们将会离开中华的教室而踏入这现实的社会

瞬然间好想念上学的时候
有许多朋友的陪伴

每次一个人的时候就会乱想
好久好久都没发自内心的笑容了
一直一直不断的在伪装着自己

心灵的刺痛
没几个人能此了解

家人不断的在问候着你
脸皮真的就比我们这8个月爱来的感情重要么？

耀眼的流星一散而去
留下来的
是光辉的未来
恩...是么 ？

好久的你没牵起我的手
好久的你没让我感受你的拥抱
好久的我们没一起坐下来闲聊心事
好久的我们没一起出去看戏，逛逛街了

来临的圣诞节及新年
我们可不可以一起的渡过你我的第一次呢？

心再次的受创伤
我说过了
那是我愿意的
不会怪任何人

此今终于找到个字可形容自己
“ 犯贱 ”

觉得自己好犯贱
不断的在作贱自己

不过那是值得的
因为因为我已无法自拔的爱上你了

是第一个让我对你产下此感觉
但愿也是最后一个

可不可以不要把你我分的彻底
我不断的努力挣求着

只因为
我不想失去你 ><

✖NOW AND ALWAYS✖

谢谢你的圣诞礼物。
我很喜欢。
但我期盼的是：
我们在一起第一次的圣诞节。

原来原来，
你真的观察留意我许多。

我不要你的任何祝福，
也不要那一半的纸鹤和那VIP车座告示牌 ，
我要的不是这些。

你知道么？
我哭了。
我真的真的哭了。
但你放心，我不会让我家人知道我哭。

我要的只是很简单。
我要的。。。。。
我要的是你。

我们是相爱的。
为什么非得这样的残忍拆散及停止这段感情。

我家人已说了，
没反对。
他们希望我们在一起。

就给我家人及我们一次的机会好吗？
不要轻而易举的就这样放弃好吗？

我不管将来会怎样，
我就只是要爱你。

你是在乎我的。
你是关心我的。

我找到了。
我已找到我要的。

✖WEDDING CEREMONY✖

✖ Pre-Wedding Photo Album ✖

Yesterday's party night,
I hang their house before 5:30pm.
Cause need to helped them doing somethings.

Is was a long time didn't saw my leng leng's cousin sis.
She is getting marry soon.
She is already registered with her boyfriend.
Next time is your turn♥

I get a shocked yesterday.
Many cousin asking me why didn't bring you come together.
Expencially is my cousin sis and my cousin bro.
Ask me calling you come and attend today's Wedding Dinner.
Addiontional mummy too.
Ask me why didn't call you come yesterday.==


♥ After Make Up By Myself ♥

Today wake up in the early morning.
It is because need to attend my loving cousin bro-Desmond Ng's Wedding Ceremony.
Today is your big day of your whole life.
Congratz both of you♥


♥♥ ITS SWEET ♥♥


♥ Reach's ♥

Many cousin attend today's Wedding Ceremony.
Cant imagine it.
Our cousin is was totally many.
I just wait to take the ANG PAU.

2pm..Dinner time.
I like the Ballroom much.
But the cost is highest na.


✖ Cheer ✖

Today is my first time after drunk wine feel blur.
Cant stand properly.
But,i like that Red Wine much.
After drunk till 10 glass let mummy hold it.
Haha..cause I need to drive car back's.


♥ May I ??? ♥

Hold me now♥
Touch me now♥


♥ Bride and Bridegroom ♥


✖ The stage is cant enough laa.We are Big Family ✖

When I hang there or hang here,
Cousin asking the same question for me.
Em..next time next time.
Still have chance's.

Yeap,Mummy too.
Mummy today sot jor.
Say with my Aunt,cause she son have GF's and bring her come today.
Now is what world's.
Can get marry since together going study.
Haha..We all laughing at there.
Mummy:sure boh???

Mummy today suddenly say with me.
'' 我没有反对你们在一起 ''
Mummy today asking about you too.
She is totally caring you.

Anywhere,Congratz na♥♥
I like to attend Wedding Ceremony.
It was can feel it love's blissful.
Which time is my turn??^^

✖HURT✖

✖ 可爱的圣诞老公公 ✖

Is was a long time didn't use Chinese type my bloggy's.
Don't know how to describe my soul now.

Tears is cant stopping on my eyes.
Keyboard is wet.

While i know you sick a few day haven't recover,
While i hear your voice know you still fall in sick,
You know me have how much's worry you?

Keep asking friends have what medicine is for flu.
And out after i'm revision and going to farmasi finding medicine.
When i on the way going your house and saw your car,
Calling you and want ask you go where and meet you take the medicine for you's.
You reply me's is what?
Yon know my heart have how much's 难过 ?

Well,i going your house.
Saw your house no people at home.
Than I put that medicine into the letter box.
While I saw your mimi back home's,
Reverse back and told your mimi take the medicine for you.

You know why i did to do so much?
You know my heart have how much's worry about your healthy?

On the end,you reply me's is what?.
That message you know have how much's hurt me?

My heart is was totally painful.
Same like getting a blood.
Is my first time...first time.

sad + ing
cry + ing

I am going to mad.
I ate jor 2 medicine of flu.
Shhh....
I want sleep.
I want sleep until the world is ending.

✖TAGGED BY✖

Tagged by:Edson Koh Yi Shen

Tag.32 Things You Didn't Know About Me Until You Read This:

1.What Color Is Your Toothbrush?:
✖ Pink and White Color ✖

2.Name One Person That Made You Smile Today:
✖ No,Cause I Am Sad...I Already Lost My Smile ✖

3.What were you doing at 8 Am?:
✖ Still fall in sleep ✖

4.What were you doing after 45 minutes ago?:
✖ Listen music and surfing Internet ✖

5.What was the last things you had drink?:
✖ Plan water ✖

6.Who is the last person you sent a message to you on facebook?:
✖ Hitomi Wen ✖

7.Ever go camping?:
✖ No ✖

8.Do you go to church every Sunday?:
✖ Miss,but i'm no a Christian ✖

9.What did your last message say?:
✖ Sorry, privacy ✖

10.Where is your dad?:
✖ Working ✖

11.Look to your left,what did you see?:
✖ Wall ✖

12.What Color is your Watch:?
✖ I don't wear watch's ✖

13.What were you doing at midnight last night:?
✖ Miss someone ✖

14.How Old Are You:?
✖ 17 ✖

15.Do you want to Changes your name:?
✖ No ✖

16.How many kids do you want to have:?
✖ 2 enough..1 Boy,1 Girl ✖

17.Would you kiss any of your facebook friends:?
✖ No ✖

18.Who are the Best Huggers that you know:?
✖ Him ✖

19.List three favorite Color/shades:?
✖ Pink,White,Blue ✖

20.Have you ever fallen in love:?
✖ Of Course ✖

21.How did you get your worst scar:?
✖ Em..Is hard to answer this question,don't know how to explain ✖

22.Do you likes cats:?
✖ No ✖

23.Do you love Anyone:?
✖ Yes ✖

24.What do you hope to get your B'day:?
✖ Can celebrate with him ✖

25.Do you plan any Trip for your next coming:?
✖ Miss to go Beach with him for my next coming trip ✖

26.What do you usually do during the day:?
✖ Sleep,surfing Internet,miss someone ✖

27.Do you hate anyone that you know right now:?
✖ No ✖

28.Is anyone jealous of you:?
✖ I don't know ✖

29.Favorite pair of shoes you wear all time:?
✖ No ✖

30.Last song listed to:?
✖ Take Me To Your Heart-MLTR ✖

31.Who's the last person you talked to on phone:?
✖ Classmate ✖

32.What is your favorite number:?
✖ 8 ✖


Tag 5 people to do the same things:

✖ Sorry..I don't want tag any people == ✖

That all:
Moody...want to cry

✖I KNOW WHO I AM✖

8 subject is already GONE !
Another 2 MORE subject !
My exam life will be Ending soon.
But my sadness days should be coming.
The days would be all be empty.

My Accounts,
No eyes see.
None thinks it before will out '' AKAUN PERDAGANGAN ''.

Shit!!!
My '' A " is just going for my dreaming.

Luckily my DOKUMEN have balance.
But have balance no possible will all right's.
So,don't be happy first~==

I using 6 hours more to revision my ACCOUNTS.
My first time,cant imagine it.
Another subject i wont so hardworking use many time to revision's.
Actually Accounts.
I am interesting on this subject.
But sometimes will make me confuse + headache.



Thanks for this some medicine to accompanied.
But until now,
Still haven't recover na.
Sneeze is love me so much.
Always come to find me.
Nose now getting red red's.
Flu~~~
A(H1N1) ==



Today my tear dropping from my eyes again.
My brain never ever stop up my thinking.
I am sorry.
Please forgive me cause i am crying.

Today mummy went to AEON renew her J-CARD.
She is passing by your working's shop.
But she didn't saw you.
When she back home then asking me.==

Izzit this is my exam gonna ending soon should be get it's susprise?
I wont give up our relationship at all.
Now and Always♥
I am willing~
Including the grieve incidents will be coming again or not.
I choose to face it all.
I am know what i am thinking and what i am doing about.
This is mine.No call childish.

✖SICK✖

Next Saturday & Sunday,
need to hang on for my cousin bro's wedding ceremony.
Between it,
I like their Pre-wedding photos much.
It was look like totally natural.
And its was look likes Korean movie's life.



♥ sweet ♥
✖ Likes my cousin sis in-law's wedding dress ✖

Congratz them much.
Please treasure our love.
♥ 千里姻缘一线牵 ♥

Today evening,hang THEAN HOU TEMPLE with family.
It was a long time i didn't hang there's.
The place is totally nicely.



✖ Miss to hang there with my beloved next time and pray at there ✖

I was getting sick now.
Fever + headache + flu.

I was totally hard to stay.
I still want having my Accounts and Kesusateraan paper on Tuesday.
Just went to saw doctor.
I really cant tahan d still went to saw doctor's.

Emm..still remember when i was sick,
you bought that i am terrible much's herbal let me drink on.

Miss have you beside me and caring for me now.
Dear,miss your hug much♥

✖FREEDOM✖

My freedom days is coming soon.
SPM still left 4 days and 5 subject for me.
I want enjoying my freedom.
Miss to go beach with my beloved for traveling.

Today decorate of my car.
I want find Winnie The Pooh of car belt.
Its hard to find it na.



Dear,still remember its?
Yeap,this is when my b'day you special prepare for mine's.
Hmm..I put its at my car.^^
When i saw its,just same like when i saw you♥

We are one week more didn't meet's.
Miss you much♥
Thinking of my beloved you♥
Muaxx♥♥

✖SHA'KO✖

♥ Sha'ko Life ♥

It was a long time i didn't getting Job's.
Miss my Sha'ko buddies much.
Em..how both of you recently?

That is i'm last years work at Sha'ko as a sales girl.
Sometimes will feel it tired when at work.
But this is a good started life for me.
I shall learning many things from there.

Christmas is getting nearer too.
Saw all those Christmas stuff,
Heard those Christmas music,
And viewed the beautiful Christmas tree around the shopping centre.

Miss Sha'ko Christmas tree na.
Remember that time,
we together decorate the Christmas tree as beautiful.


♥ we decorate it's ♥

I shall feel it the joyful of Christmas.
Yeap...I like Merry Christmas much.
It have feel it very warm and romantic for me.

Our stuff should be handle the Christmas Cap when at work too.
Its really so funny.
Some customer's children still say:
'' Mummy,那边有圣诞老人 ''
Haha...we all laughing still cant stopping.


✖ sampat us ✖

On the other hand,our supervisor's born on Christmas day too.
Both of us go to NEWAY celebrated our supervisor B'day and Merry Christmas after working.


♥ Employee of Sha'ko and a friendly boss:Judy ♥


✖ shyevin & rina ✖


✖ shyevin & kary✖

Its was cant passing at my memory's things is:
One day,when i was serving a customer,
I saw a cockroach at floor.
A horrible and i damm hated and scare's cockroach.
Oh my goodness..i cant scream of at there and cant running too.
Lukily have my supervisor helped.haha~

We together solve our face it's customer problem.
We cooperate to do our things too.
I like the consciousness.

Hope will having a blissful,joyful and romantic's Christmas.
I want celebrate with my lover.
Hope my dream will come true.

Always thinking of my BELOVED you♥
Take care properly.
Miss You much♥

✖2012 Doomsday✖

♥A NICE MOVIE♥



Hang with 2 classmate go to watched ' 2012 ' in cinema.
It was awesome.It was really unbelievable.
We watched still the mouth cant closing.
Still scream of at there.
It was terrible much.I cant imagine when 21.12.2012 is coming.

It was just like Mayan said:'' the world is ending soon ''.
Actually they had discovered about Doomsday in 2012.
But some people did not believe the day would come,
And quite said:'' It was just a Prediction ".
Do you believable?
It's real.
Anywhere,we would make some difference to protect and love our earth.

21.12.2012 Prediction,end of the world.
I didn't know that would be happen or no.
But please treasure every moment in your life and appreciate what you had.
Should not give up easily.
Transmit your love to the earth,
We would change the terrible ending to the beautiful ending on 2012.



✖ shyevin & stephany ✖

✖TERRIBLE DREAM✖

The dream as i dreaming it was terrible much.
I am scared.
I really scared it much.
I don't want that dream was be come true.

My tears is none stop of my eyes.
It is because that terrible dream.
I already lost my decision soon.
My world my life is going empty.

Every things are going dislike for last times.
Every things is going complicated.
I am tired much's.

You are my beloved.
The only one's.
None have any people should be changes it in my heart.
Never ever changes it.
Miss you alot♥

✖SOUL IN MY HEART✖

Today Today
I lying at bed and sleep jor whole day.
It is because of my menstruation pain.
It was totally painfully.
Any medicine can stopped up painfully?

Due to today i didn't have any paper.
I am free for this whole day.
Miss to wan go Cheras Night Market.
It was so long i didn't hang there's.

Next Tuesday since only having my Account and Kesusateraan Cina Paper.
Wohoo..my interesting subject ''ACCOUNT''.
Miss to Skor A in Account's.
I want to take the LCCI certificate.
No need to waste money to study again.
But i am no have confidence anymore.
This is impossible and just is my dreaming.

Em..just having a call from friend.
That is about work as a beautician's.
Salary is no high.
It is because half work half learning.
I have a interesting in beautician too.
But need to sign 1 years contract.
Should be thinks it carefully.

I should be continue my Education or Working?
Any comment?

If i choose education,that education cost will highest than anythings.
Calculate on 10k+++ at 1 semester's.
I'm no a rich lady na.
Actually take a scholarship.
But this is hard for me,my result no good so.

On the other hand,i shall thinks it before study at part-time.
Half work and half study.
Em...dunno.
I am scare.
I will lost my decision soon.

But on the ending,i will choose for working first.
Haizxx~

Confuse+ ing.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Sometimes i am hope one day i will same with my cousin's GF.
No have any education.
Just finish her education on form 3.
But she had work at the office.
And she salary one month have 2k more.
I want too...xD
But 正所谓:同人不同命 na.

✖NEVER EVER✖

Music is follow my heart in a peaceful room.
Some tears are dropping on my mind.
Thinking those grieve incidents,those unhappy incident and etc.
I will lost my direction soon.

My brain never ever stop of my thinking.
Suddenly feel it lonely of a days.
Thanks for your son who was accompanied me.
Hugged our son MR.BEAN BEAN for a every moment.

But,please forgive me i am a greedy lady.
I am miss you much at a every moment♥

My menstruation pain never ever stopped up painfully.
It was pain like hell.
Luckily tomorrow i am not having my exam.
If not,i cant thinks it of the ending i will how?
I need your caring and miss have you at my beside.

Today morning 10:30 already finished my MORAL PAPER.
After back home take a bath,than straight go out to having lunch with friends
And went to friend house doing SCIENCE revision.
Suddenly feel it the time is no enough for me.
Thanks our SENIOR En.Kok who was willing to helped us revision and prepare our SCIENCE for our SPM Exam.

5 subject Gone !
5 subject More !



I like to having bath and out of a raining days.
It is because when i was crying,no have any people will know it.

Every things happen it at the moment,
I never ever said surrender.
Listen to my favourite song.
" NOTHING GONNA CHANGES MY LOVE FOR YOU "
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Every things can become a normal.
But our love our relationship is CANT .
I just hope will know all your things on the daily.
I am worry you much.
This things is cant changes it at my heart.
This is my incidents should i done on the daily.
My heart it was so painful.
I already found it what i want's.
I don't want to let it miss it.
I need to treasure you in my life and appreciate what i had.
We are already 1 week 1 day no meet's.
We are so long so long did not enjoyed our life our journey.
I am miss you much♥

✖I MISS YOU✖

I miss you much♥
Its been a long time i didnt see you
And now feel like hungging you♥
But you're far away from me

Though you're far away
I am hear to say
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

I cant control you to do anything's.
Because I am scares.
I already lost my confidence.
Sorry for this time i cant take 主见 for you.

But only the things will most scare for me's is:
That day will be coming again,
I will lost you :) I cant feel that safe again
And you will never at my beside accompany my life anymore.

I just wanna to be with you♥
I just want to hold your hand♥
Now and Always!!!
This is my life's hopefully.

If I had to live my life without you near me,
The days would all be empty.

That why I love you so much♥
You are just reach for me baby♥♥♥
muaxx♥